The despair of Post Natal depression is hugely exacerbated by a continued and relentless lack of sleep. The first 5 weeks I tried to shoulder the burden of getting up in the night on my own (I was breastfeeding anyway) but it’s so draining. Once I’d asked my partner for help we started a pattern of taking turns. I felt our whole lives revolved around sleep and trying to cope with it. I became obsessed with recording how many times I’d had to get up.